Self Reflection: Especially Appropriate for an Enneagram 2

Hello Friends!

I have a pretty vulnerable topic to share with you all today, and I hope you enjoy!

Recently during one of my quiet times, I was reflecting on myself and recent ways I’ve been thinking, spending my energy, etc. 

I am an Enneagram 2 and cherish identifying how to help someone and giving them advice. I like to give advice, especially to those that I have identified how THEY do something wrong. 

But I stopped in my tracks — THEY? What about all the things I am doing wrong? I am just as much of an imperfect person. What makes me qualified to step in and give advice when I am just as flawed?

I need to be helping myself to be my very best. The Lord led me to this discovery in my prayers the other day. I was led to writing about this realization and continual pray on these words.

This is what I wrote and reflected on: 

“It’s so easy to give advice. It’s easy to focus on how someone else is doing something wrong. It’s easy to see someone else making a bad/wrong decision. And THAT is the trap. That is when YOU become the most in the wrong.” 

Sometimes I get so wrapped up in someone else’s wrong that I forget how skewed my views of things are. I forget to see the reality of the decisions I am making. 

I pinpoint someone else’s wrong— thinking I would never do that because I love Jesus— but I fall short to see the wrongdoings I do everyday. 

I say that I love God. I believe His love is ENOUGH, but as an Enneagram 2, I also love the words of affirmation from everyone else. 

However, if God’s love is truly enough, why do I seek words of encouragement or compliments from others? 

There are many times I miss my own wrongs because I am so easily drawn to focus on the way another person made a mistake. 

My biggest prayer today is for us to see ourselves in the story of Prodigal Son. Are we the younger son who ran from the father to “do his own thing”?  Or, are we the older son who stayed with the father and shamed the younger brother?  Both sons were lost and at fault, and when we admit those faults and run back—that is when grace is shown. (Luke 15:11-32).

When we are honest with ourselves, we can always find a fault or identify some way to improve, because we are IMperfect people. 

Don’t focus on another’s mistake, but rather recognize your own fault and identify how you can be better. 

While you may be tempted to run, understanding your imperfections and Christ’s love for you anyway will only make you one step closer to running back home to the Father and receiving His Grace”. 

This was such a powerful revelation I had from the other day, and as much as I love helping others, I am so thankful the Lord revealed to me this message. 

I needed to hear these words the other day. I needed to be redirected towards thinking of how to be the very best Katie Girl vs finding fault in others. 

I wanted to share in case you may be dealing with a similar temptation of always “helping”someone else. Let’s try to refocus on being a better version of ourselves! 

This is my prayer for myself and you!

Love Always, 

Katie Girl